Wow, over a year has past since my last entry in this journal...
So time for a verry small update..

Some of you might know about Nadia, how much I am in love with her..
How I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her..
Well Not to long ago my dream about us finally came true...
After a very romantic evening including dinner for 2 and watching the stars at night she finally told me how she really felt about me...

She showed me how to love again...
It was the best weekend of my entire life...
she gave me her heart, for she already took mine!

I wished the dream would never end..
Sadly it did..


At may 30th she died in a fight during her work as a cop.
She got hit by friendly fire..
As they rushed her to the hospital she collapsed.

So now you know why I have ben so sad, grumpy and broken lately..
Once more I thought I could actually be happy!
But again was that person taken away from me..

Today i got my new tattoo in her memorial..
Cause I know she wanted me to get that..

To those i have been cruel, angry or whatever..
Please forgive me..
For my heart needs some time to heal...